i am still undecided
unsure of the future
what do i really want in life?

verena says when in doubt,
clarify yourself
be more proactive
in discovering ur interests
internships, attachments
good advice

grace says
if u do what u like,
u'll do well
a degree is only a small part of career
what's more important
is that u are more prepared for work
able to present yourself
it's not wise to decide on a very
technical degree
when i don't like
what i study
it will difficult

i realise that first,
i must know what I want
and not let what other people say
persuade me otherwise
i must go into something which i enjoy
because i have a passion in it
ultimately, its my life and i have to make a choice
for myself
because only i know what's best for me

but i'm still undecided
each has its strengths n weaknesses
so whats the best fit
I really don't know
I don't want to regret anything

yes, I shall go catch up Bleach series
Watch too much D.Gray Man haha
Shall slack while it lasts
I am such a kid at heart
Hmmm my ''accomplishments" so far:
1)Fate Stay Night 4/5:
great visual fight scenes
2)Monster 5/5:
psychological thriller
makes me wonder: what is the REAL monster?
3)Midori No Hibi 3/5:
sweet innocence but fleeting soon turn boring
4) High School Girls 4/5:
for laugh out loud crude humour
i think i should make note of the anime list
Verena is going off a jet plane to uk to study
Ruthie is probably studying law
My friends are in Science fac, Social Science, Engineering
Seems like life is at the crossroads now

Anticipation for the future
Fear of the unknown

People change. I will to, eventually.
I want to be someone:
confident( i seem to be lacking in this area)
sure of my beliefs
unafraid
able to voice my thoughts

at least, the next time my friends see me
I will be a better person
someone they are proud to have a friend
as I am proud to have them as friends

A better Me.

You Are 24 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

its sad la...jiayi is still sad that verena refuses to try and reconcile with her...shes is upset that verena does not care about their friendship..heys verena if u are reading pls try and talk to her..shes not angry with you just sad that u act as if u dont care that you both are no longer frens...i mean, theres still a huge possibility to resolve all misunderstandings...but with the both of u holding back and refusing to take the first step, it will be extremely difficult to do so...Come on and take action...Friendship is v important right?
meanwhile, i feel an overwhelming sense of helplessness in knowing that i can do nothing to remedy the situation.....
DEATHNOTE~ sigh the end of one of my current fav manga..the ending is cryptic and v puzzling..leaving me even more frustrated
Running,
Footsteps beating
Against the pavement
Blood thumping
Reverberating
In my ears.
Escaping blindly,
Falling away.
Wash away my spilled tears
Of pain.

adapted from Aquiriis, Harry Potter fanfiction(fanfiction.net)
PW- its LEthal

In the ideal world, Pw will be relaxing...NO i am not complaining about the fact that it involoves a lot of work...its still within my tolerance levels...However, things get Really UGLY if the grp members doesnt work well together... Why Should I be complaning? I know that i should be v contented that our grp is pretty productive plus cooperative...But beneath the billiant facade that everythings its oh, just fine...LOOK AGAIn...
..its really bad...I Will try my best to treat everyone fairly...EVEN IF I KILLS ME >>I WILL PUT ON A FAKE SMILE AS I TALK IN THE FUTURE...I am not nice but I shall at least pretend to be
arggghhhh PW is driving me nuts...honestly i must thank IVY for her
wonderful suggestion: venting my frustrations on my Blog...Unleash the inner BITCH!!! MUhahaha ...
anyways, i m damn disappointed with the slow progress..things are not wat we anticipated..and some people r just so lag..yawns must i even say Who?? seriously i am the sort of person who does not like conflict but at the same time, does not like to beat about the bush..if i were rude person, i would be unhurling strings of vulgarities and poking needles in a voodoo doll..or even da xiao ren...but Nah doing so will only raise Blood pressure and i dun want to die so young..life is precious, you know...
But i havent finish bitching...if there are different levels of bitching, on a scale of 1-5, my bitching skills is at best, a 3..reason? well, there are many more bitchy ones out there whom are just to frank for their own good (i mean, they ridicule others, poke fun at others, hightlight their shortcomings for their own satisfaction, giving u a 'U are such a LOSER' face...now thats a real level 5)
ah feel better ...LIFE HAS ALWAYS BEEN UNFAIR..Just have to deal with it..BRING IT ON!!!!!
sigh why is it that after a fantastic day of celebratin the end of exams do i get this sinking feeling?

a voice within says, ''Because you don't deserve it?''

ok ok that i admit is true but hey its already a major achievement that i had studied alot considering what limited time i had...1st week of june hols (A level Bio spa..so that excuses me) then second week, i had CCA camp (hey since i was in the June camp committee, i had to do lots o preparation work okay..v tiring)..which leaves me only 2 weeks left....

Fine, the point is : I tried my best so if my Chemistry didnt turn out well..hey i studied..I tried, i really did
But what if I FAIL CHEM FOR THE FIRST TIME...I am so Doomed...I never left so many blanks in a Chem paper before ...Arghhh please please let me pass Chem and oh yes, my econs..its was just my luck that I blanked out then after the exam, all the information started to get back to me...

I am so worried about my JCTs but then again, I want to enjoy today after all, the results won't be back so soon rite? oh i feel so much better now that i can even forget about everything and indulge in fun and games HA, i deserve at least some games and of course, SIMS 2 ...I want a new expansion pack (open for Business)

Change for the better or be stagnant
Believe even when the odds are stacked against you
Always trust your instincts
Treasure those around
Count my blessings

Melissa|Tian2|Verena|Crystal|
Denise|Huimin|Peiwen|Sze Hwee|
Ka Leng|Huiling|benjamin|Liling|
Tingjie|aaron|

December 2005 / February 2006 / March 2006 / June 2006 / July 2006 / August 2006 / October 2006 / May 2008 / July 2008 /

designer: inksplash
resources: 1 2 3

i am still undecided
unsure of the future
what do i really want in life?

verena says when in doubt,
clarify yourself
be more proactive
in discovering ur interests
internships, attachments
good advice

grace says
if u do what u like,
u'll do well
a degree is only a small part of career
what's more important
is that u are more prepared for work
able to present yourself
it's not wise to decide on a very
technical degree
when i don't like
what i study
it will difficult

i realise that first,
i must know what I want
and not let what other people say
persuade me otherwise
i must go into something which i enjoy
because i have a passion in it
ultimately, its my life and i have to make a choice
for myself
because only i know what's best for me

but i'm still undecided
each has its strengths n weaknesses
so whats the best fit
I really don't know
I don't want to regret anything

yes, I shall go catch up Bleach series
Watch too much D.Gray Man haha
Shall slack while it lasts
I am such a kid at heart
Hmmm my ''accomplishments" so far:
1)Fate Stay Night 4/5:
great visual fight scenes
2)Monster 5/5:
psychological thriller
makes me wonder: what is the REAL monster?
3)Midori No Hibi 3/5:
sweet innocence but fleeting soon turn boring
4) High School Girls 4/5:
for laugh out loud crude humour
i think i should make note of the anime list
Verena is going off a jet plane to uk to study
Ruthie is probably studying law
My friends are in Science fac, Social Science, Engineering
Seems like life is at the crossroads now

Anticipation for the future
Fear of the unknown

People change. I will to, eventually.
I want to be someone:
confident( i seem to be lacking in this area)
sure of my beliefs
unafraid
able to voice my thoughts

at least, the next time my friends see me
I will be a better person
someone they are proud to have a friend
as I am proud to have them as friends

A better Me.

You Are 24 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

its sad la...jiayi is still sad that verena refuses to try and reconcile with her...shes is upset that verena does not care about their friendship..heys verena if u are reading pls try and talk to her..shes not angry with you just sad that u act as if u dont care that you both are no longer frens...i mean, theres still a huge possibility to resolve all misunderstandings...but with the both of u holding back and refusing to take the first step, it will be extremely difficult to do so...Come on and take action...Friendship is v important right?
meanwhile, i feel an overwhelming sense of helplessness in knowing that i can do nothing to remedy the situation.....
DEATHNOTE~ sigh the end of one of my current fav manga..the ending is cryptic and v puzzling..leaving me even more frustrated
Running,
Footsteps beating
Against the pavement
Blood thumping
Reverberating
In my ears.
Escaping blindly,
Falling away.
Wash away my spilled tears
Of pain.

adapted from Aquiriis, Harry Potter fanfiction(fanfiction.net)
PW- its LEthal

In the ideal world, Pw will be relaxing...NO i am not complaining about the fact that it involoves a lot of work...its still within my tolerance levels...However, things get Really UGLY if the grp members doesnt work well together... Why Should I be complaning? I know that i should be v contented that our grp is pretty productive plus cooperative...But beneath the billiant facade that everythings its oh, just fine...LOOK AGAIn...
..its really bad...I Will try my best to treat everyone fairly...EVEN IF I KILLS ME >>I WILL PUT ON A FAKE SMILE AS I TALK IN THE FUTURE...I am not nice but I shall at least pretend to be
arggghhhh PW is driving me nuts...honestly i must thank IVY for her
wonderful suggestion: venting my frustrations on my Blog...Unleash the inner BITCH!!! MUhahaha ...
anyways, i m damn disappointed with the slow progress..things are not wat we anticipated..and some people r just so lag..yawns must i even say Who?? seriously i am the sort of person who does not like conflict but at the same time, does not like to beat about the bush..if i were rude person, i would be unhurling strings of vulgarities and poking needles in a voodoo doll..or even da xiao ren...but Nah doing so will only raise Blood pressure and i dun want to die so young..life is precious, you know...
But i havent finish bitching...if there are different levels of bitching, on a scale of 1-5, my bitching skills is at best, a 3..reason? well, there are many more bitchy ones out there whom are just to frank for their own good (i mean, they ridicule others, poke fun at others, hightlight their shortcomings for their own satisfaction, giving u a 'U are such a LOSER' face...now thats a real level 5)
ah feel better ...LIFE HAS ALWAYS BEEN UNFAIR..Just have to deal with it..BRING IT ON!!!!!
sigh why is it that after a fantastic day of celebratin the end of exams do i get this sinking feeling?

a voice within says, ''Because you don't deserve it?''

ok ok that i admit is true but hey its already a major achievement that i had studied alot considering what limited time i had...1st week of june hols (A level Bio spa..so that excuses me) then second week, i had CCA camp (hey since i was in the June camp committee, i had to do lots o preparation work okay..v tiring)..which leaves me only 2 weeks left....

Fine, the point is : I tried my best so if my Chemistry didnt turn out well..hey i studied..I tried, i really did
But what if I FAIL CHEM FOR THE FIRST TIME...I am so Doomed...I never left so many blanks in a Chem paper before ...Arghhh please please let me pass Chem and oh yes, my econs..its was just my luck that I blanked out then after the exam, all the information started to get back to me...

I am so worried about my JCTs but then again, I want to enjoy today after all, the results won't be back so soon rite? oh i feel so much better now that i can even forget about everything and indulge in fun and games HA, i deserve at least some games and of course, SIMS 2 ...I want a new expansion pack (open for Business)

Embarking on a journey of self-discovery:
Will I change for the better?
Character wise.
Ability wise.
I want to achieve more.
I belong somewhere.
But, I am still searching.
I am working on it.
Who knows what the future may bring.